Feeble impulses

I'ts been a rough time lately, with the death of my beloved grandmother.
When I heard the news I was in Geneva for an artshow. I had loads of troubles committing myself to my work because I had the feeling that I should create new work.
Which I eventually did, I made a 5 x 7 meter abstract painting.
I looked at the work today since it arrived back from Switzerland, and concluded the work is absolute crap.
I'll never show it again...